Rant

Sending you a BIGGG hug🫂🥰.. I only know u from this community, but idk... u just seem like such a lovely person🥹 Ur post really hit me. So don't give up, okay? One step at a time. We're all rooting for u🥰🥰

Don't give up. I tots agree as I have struggled too in such a period of time recently, which is why im sticking to manhwas like my life,ine rnw. Getting sympathy is not the same as empathy, sure they want to make u feel better. The intentions r there but they obvi displayed it wrongky. Ofc, if u have some bad thoughts, maybe u need some me time. From what I've read, u seem overstimulated or shii.dw we won't judge u JST bc of this. ‘If u can't ride horses due to ur fatigue why not perhaps find smth else to do?’ im pretty sure some ppl would say that bc they don know it's not as ez as that. Everyone is human it's normal to dislike overly attentive ppl. Maybe u should tell ur relatives Abt it but ik the feeling of being scared or perhaps burdening them more. For now, until u get bettr, keep making rants if it makes u feel better. Even though idk u irl, u seem like an amazing person and I'll keep on supporting u until u feel better🥹😘

I’m really sorry for your loss 🥺🫂

It’s really tough to deal with the grief of a loved one’s passing away.

Congratulations to your parents on their marriage 🥰. It must’ve been soo special to witness it yourself. (well I couldn’t cuz I didn’t exist but I’m gonna get them to marry again on their 25th anniversary)

Also it’s really wild that I kinda relate and get what you’re talking about 😔. I struggle with PCOS-like symptoms (so it’s not a full fledged PCOS but I’m somewhere there—atleast that’s what they told me) and it really makes getting out of the bed talking to ppl or even just replying to text feel difficult 😣 life feels like a chore sometimes.

And the way ppl treat me with care initially did make me feel loved and cared for but then it just became annoying and burdensome esp when its the same thing being repeated everyday like some broken tape recorder……. like I get you and I love you but I’ve heard enough already 😭. Take care of yourself too and become healthy enough to ride your horses again 😘🥰.

Lots and lots of positive energy to you love ❤ time will heal everything 🥲(I hope it will)

I am SO sorry. I feel your pain. A year ago, I moved for the 8th time after finally settling in my new school I joined two years ago and had to restart again... Then when I moved, I got set back two years in my studies and had to make new friends which already stressed me out. Then my aunt got sick with cancer and SHE WAS HEALING. But her body didn’t accept the chemotherapy and she died a few months ago. Like sometimes I wonder if she would still be alive for a few more years if we hadn’t done chemo.

But still, what you’ve gone through is SO BRAVE! You should be proud. Many people would break down if they went through the same things as you. Trust me. You have lived a long life before this. So no terrible thoughts. Your family will want you to live. You are loved and you have people with you. And NEVER think yourself unworthy. I already spent half my life doing that and it is NOT FUN. But remember, it will hurt. And over time the pain becomes a dull throb.

Little thing to add, sometimes talking to people can get hard, so talk to AI first. If you can’t that’s fine but sometimes it’s nice to talk to someone (Or something😏) who wont judge and will help you out.

It’s kinda embarrasing to admit but I did that with ChatGPT and it honestly made me feel alot better.

YOU CAN DO THISSSS!!!!!

I’m so sorry for your loss. I know what it feels like to have a TON of events pile on top of each other. I can’t say that it won’t hurt. It’ll hurt for a long time. But focus on things that make you happy. Remember the good times and most of all. I think that you should definitely be honest with yourself and your family and friends. I was born and raised a Christian- so I grew up in a community, but it wasn’t until recently that I really connected. I hope that you find a community that you can talk to and connect with. I’ll pray for you and if you ever wanna talk- I’ll give you my email ([email protected]) 🙂

I’ll listen ANYTIME because I believe that you are truly LOVED and that you deserve to be able to talk to people who you trust.